Saturday, September 12, 2009

frustrated

The last two weeks have been crazy. Two weeks ago I caught the flu. As I was getting better my mom and grandma showed up for a visit and during their visit I managed to get sick again and am only now feeling better. This morning I finally attempted tennis again and played fairly well considering my stuffy nose and rusty skills. Next on my list of musts are two papers that really should be completed this weekend because next week my mom and grandma are visiting again and I will no doubt be too preoccupied to write. I am also seeing my doctor this upcoming week for my yearly physical, which can only be a pleasant experience after she stuck things up my nose last week, and I plan on asking her why I have been catching every damn bug. It seems like just when I’m beginning to feel fantastic, and I’m accomplishing goals, eating healthy, maintaining my weight and exercising ferociously I am suddenly tackled by some kind of bug and then all I can manage to do is sleep which is quite depressing. Then once I’m better I start all over again only to be taken down once more. It’s getting to be exhausting, frustrating and unbelievably depressing. Interestingly enough I had mono about six years ago and after I fought through that the doctor warned that because my immune system was shot I may catch every bug known to man. I went at least a year without getting sick at all and then for quite awhile I only got sick occasionally. Now, over the past year I have been sick at least half a dozen times. What am I doing wrong? I don’t know. Perhaps it is the stress. Perhaps, after six years of semi-vegetarianism, four of which I have eaten quite healthy and two of which I have begrudgingly added fish, it is finally catching up with me. Maybe I need to exercise more than ten hours a week. Maybe I need meditation or God rather than painting or cuddling with my dogs, or more than seven or eight hours of sleep a night. Maybe it isn’t enough to have a fantastic family. Maybe I don’t laugh enough or take enough Vitamin ABCDEFGHIJK etc. Perhaps I should wear a mask and gloves or a bubble. Maybe I should spray my feet with disinfectant after I use them to open bathroom stalls and flush toilets. What if I’m allergic to my dogs or my books? I throw my hands up. What am I doing wrong?

7 comments:

the walking man said...

I don't know. I do know that as a diabetic I am supposed to have a compromised immune system and yet rarely catch anything. I get a flu shot and go on but beyond that I don't eat right, smoke and never even consider vitamins. I am clean but I don't obsess over it. It is after all a compromised environment and I adapted to it.

All I can say is be well Hannah.

jodi said...

Honey, 10 hours a week of exercise is plenty. Make sure you are getting enough iron and b12. Vegetarians usually lack both. And lastly, working out hard requires LOTS of rest, as thats when the muscles rebuild and grow. Hope this helps. Oh, and cuddle the dogs even more!

Robin said...

Hannah girl,
Maybe your body/spirit is telling you to slow down a bit. You seem to have a thousand things going on at once, as if you will never catch up.

You're too young to have to 'catch up'. EVERYTHING your spirit loves will be there if you leave it for a while (those that matter, anyway).

Determine what few things you want to do, then those things you HAVE to do, and leave the rest. Pare life down to it's essence and see what happens.

Robin said...

Just stopping by to say that I hope you're feeling better....

JR's Thumbprints said...

My employer is offering me the "regular" flu shot. I want the flu shot that'll deter this H1N1 strain that supposedly will spread like wildfire. Hope you're doing much better.

Sandy said...

Hi noisysmile. take care and get well soon

the walking man said...

Done being frustrated yet kiddo?